Indigo Incarnates

We are all familiar with Exodus 20. It’s not a bad set of rules as far as religious rules go: Love God, love your spouse and parents, and don’t lie, cheat, steal, covet, or kill. Sadly, this set of rules is outdated for modern Christianity. I’ve been an observer of Christian behavior for quite a while, and I’ve figured out the Ten Commandments that they ACTUALLY live by:

ONE: Thou shalt hate homosexuals with all your mind, heart, body, and spirit.
TWO: Thou shalt vote Republican in all matters of democracy
THREE: Thou shalt use deception, falsehood, and guile to accomplish thy goals.
FOUR: Thou shalt blame homosexuals for all matter of natural calamity as well as for war and famine,
FIVE: Thou shalt not murder, save that the victim is homosexual; then thou shalt strike to kill.
SIX: Thou shalt disavow one’s offspring if they proclaim to be homosexual.
SEVEN: Thou shalt slander religions other then thine own.
EIGHT: Thou shalt fear science, art, culture, and literature.
NINE: Thou shalt give credence to Leviticus, Acts, Romans, and Revelations above all other Biblical manuscripts.
TEN: Thou shalt claim Christ’s mercy for thine own whilst denying it to those who displeasest thou.

Indigo Incarnates

First, let me offer a disclaimer: what I am about to write does NOT apply to Doris, Nancy, Nick, or Joan. It does apply to all other Christians.

Christianity declared war against the gay community back in the Reagan era. The Church was had great exultation when there were hundreds of thousands of young gay men dying of AIDS each year. Fast-forward thirty years and the Church’s war against gays continues. The Church fights for their right to kill us without penalty (as evidenced to their opposition to Hate Crime legislation that also protects Christians but they wanted it to not protect gays as well). The Church has stripped us of our civil protections in 31 states as well. The Church plans on legislating discrimination in all fifty states. Then they will go for an anti-gay Federal amendment. Then they will criminalize us. Then they will imprison us. Then they will put us to death.

Christianity has declared war on gays. They have the money and power to win it. Someday we will all be sucking Cyclon-B while the Christians quote Leviticus as they sing the praises of ballot initiatives.

So since I am the target of Christian hate, I will hate them in return. I will hate Christianity and hate Christians with all my mind, heart, and spirit.

This is what I have resolved:

If a Christian is stranded on the roadside, I will refuse them a ride
If a Christian needs a blood transfusion, I will refuse them a drop.
If a Christian needs a dollar, I will refuse them a penny.
If a Christian needs a shoulder to cry on, I will walk away.
If a Christian is getting mugged, I won’t dial 911.
If a Christian is drowning, I’ll throw them both ends of the rope.
If a Christian is hungry, I won’t spare them a crumb.
I hate the Church. I hate Christianity. They will get nothing from me but wrath and scorn. May they get threefold return on the harm they cause others.

Indigo Incarnates

Since Doug is away for a few days and Samhain was last night, I'm sorta keeping a low profile tonight so I don't get inundated with neighborhood kiddies wanting candy. Egads. So, I have all the lights out downstairs and I'm watching a movie upstairs. Gotta love Mystery Science Theater 3000!

So, I had the day off so I had some time to play some Sacred-2 today. Gotta love a game where one can play a warrior angel that says snarky things like "I cannot forgive your blasphemy" and "Burn for your sins!" while chopping the heads off zombies and kobolds. I'm playing it on "hard" now instead of "regular". Very cool :)

I'm not a big fan of daylight savings time. I really think it's long overdue to jettison the goofy semi-annual time adjustment that Ben Franklin came up with. For me, it just totally distresses me that the sun will be setting at 5:00pm or so tomorrow. Ugh!

I'm watching "laserblast", the MST3K version of course. It amazes me that some of these movies actually got made! This particular cinematic gem features a sociopathic teenager that finds a piece of alien hardware in the middle of the desert. It's a goofy sort of arm-mounted laser cannon. So of course the completely unlikable youth uses the gun to blow up people he doesn't like. Ha ha ha ha! And it gradually turns him undead too. Whoopoo-hoo!

Halo incarnates

is hard sometimes. Sometimes worry. Bad dreams. Sometimes afraid to sleep. Am tired. Hate nightmares. Am tired. Feel like cutting. Didn't cut. Hard to not do it. Didn't cut. Am so tired.

halo incarnates

hate being incomplete. will never be whole. will never be how we should be. hate the memory. hate what happened. didn’t ask for it. didn’t want it to happen. didn’t ask for it. was forced. hated it. hated it hated it. will never be free of it. will always be haunted. hate it. feel like cutting. blood pays for sins. hate being hated. hate being feared. didn’t want things to happen. hate being afraid. am not a coward. didn’t want things to happen. didn’t know what to do. hate myself. hate feeling defiled. hate feeling unclean. will never be whole. hate myself. hate myself. hate myself. want to cut. nothing sharp here. want to cut. no way to cut. am tired. hate being haunted. hate being haunted when we sleep. hate having memory of what was. didn’t ask for it. didn’t want it. hate myself. hate myself. hate myself. hate being incomplete. will never be whole. hate what happened. hate it. didn’t ask. hate it. can never forget. am haunted.

Halo incarnates

hate myself. Want to cut. Hate feeling ashamed. Hate being haunted.

Indigo Incarnates

It’s been dark, rainy, and cold for three days straight and the weather forecast predicts another four days just like it. Nice. It’s the kind o weather that makes this body ache. I can feel a sort of echo of every major injury I’ve ever had. I know that as a Wiccan I’m supposed to appreciate all aspects of nature and weather, but it’s hard to feel appreciative when my energy is drained and this physical body aches for no good reason. Of well… what can ya do?

On the bright side, we’re finally rid of T-Mobile. Doug’s iPhone arrived yesterday, so we finished porting our numbers to AT&T. Now, it’s not that I’m some gargantuan AT&T fan, but at least they have decent coverage where we live and where our families live. T-Mobile *used* to, but earlier this year they decided to cut costs by letting their roaming agreements expire. This had the effect of vastly shrinking their coverage area and making their data transfer rate a heck of a lot slower (my Blackberry was down to 4 Kbps towards the end.) Yeah, and I’m sure that anyone who owns a T-Mobile Sidekick is happy right now too, since T-Mobile botched the service in a spectacular way that made everyone’s Sidekick phones lose their stored phone numbers, photos, ring tones, and games.

I had to finally turn the heat on yesterday. But I did wait until the house got down to 54 degrees before I just couldn’t take it anymore. Electricity is absurdly expensive in Maryland because the former Governor (Robert Ehrlich) decided to let BGE operate as an unregulated monopoly for energy generation. So of course the first thing the company did was to more than double the price of natural gas and electricity. The CEO got a $30 million dollar bonus last year. Now our current Governor (Martin O’Malley) is dragging his heels on allowing a new power plant to be built – despite the fact that in doing so, thousands of jobs would be created and the price of electricity would go down because of the additional generating capability. He also raised taxes – a lot – despite the fact that the Bush Recession shows no signs of letting up anytime in the near future. So, to say the least, my income is lower, but everything else costs more. Lovely.

Indigo Incarnates

Every time I lead or participate in a Wiccan rite, I get more assured that this is the right spiritual path for me. I think it significant that the Wiccan deities are a god and goddess of nature. In Christianity, Judeaism, and Islam, the deity is a god of war. In Wicca, the goddess and god are not ashamed of creation and not ashamed of their children (ie. us). In the Abrahamic faiths, the angry war god of the desert hates creation and is ashamed of humanity. I choose a faith where I am loved by the goddess and god.

Indigo Incarnates

With just one exception, this weekend has been pretty cool. On Friday, I led an Autumn rite at Turning Circle. The worship service went pretty well. The thing about Wicca is that there is a real focus on community and on personal spiritual development. At Turning Circle, we have two kinds of services: Circle Rites and Moon Rites. The Circle Rites are generally longer than the Moon Rites. Fortunately, it was pretty easy to shave down a Circle Rite down to the time constraints of a Moon Rite. Basically, to compare it to an Episcopalian service, a Circle Rite is like an 11:15am service while a Moon Rite is like a 7:00am service.

As a Wiccan who also attends Church at Saint John's in Ellicott City, I basically believe in two parts of the Christian Trinity. The attributes of Jesus are similar to that of the Wiccan God: courage, duty, stoicism in the face of death, sacrifice for the life of others, regeneration and new life following death. The Holy Spirit and the Wiccan Goddess in their respective faiths are described in similar ways: omnipresent, life giving, ever-loving, ever nurturing. I just don't buy into the idea that the hateful, violent, petty, genocidal War God of the Old Testament is the father of Jesus.

Saturday was pretty good. I did my Sarurday workout and I got to play a biweekly roleplaying game with Doug, Jeff, and Ritchie. I played a lizardman shaman that basically looked like a five-foot tall T-Rex. Doug played a cat humanoid that has big claws bit is usually too lazy to use them (ie., like a real cat, ha ha!)

The only drag this weekend was having another night full of nightmares about my dad. It's quite amazing how he's able to still hurt me even to this day. But since the Angry Desert God has always blessed the hateful and malevolent works my dad has wrought, I can hardly be surprised that YHVH has granted my father the ability to inflict injury from afar.

I'm trying to stagger my way through two church services today since it's handbell Sunday. I am really tired. :(

Indigo Incarnates

It’s hard to imagine a person less deserving of receiving the Nobel Peace Prize than Barack Obama. The only one I can think of is the late, unlamented arch-terrorist/thief Yassir Arafat.

When I heard that Obama was going to receive the Nobel Peace Prize, the first though that came to mind was “But… he hasn’t DONE anything!” Really. What the heck has Obama done in the past 9 months that make him worthy of this award?

Let’s see… in nine months, he broke every promise he ever made while campaigning.

Advancing the cause of the LGTB community? That’s a broken promise.
Ending the war? That’s a broken promise.
Ending “too big to fail”? That’s a broken promise.
Ending lobbying? That’s a broken promise.
Closing GitMo? That’s a broken promise.
Revoking the Patriot Act? That’s a broken promise.
Hiring only ethical, scandal-free appointees? That’s a broken promise.
The list goes on, but you get the idea.

I got it! He got the Nobel Peace Prize for having the most promises broken within the first year in office!